It’s times like these where I have to repeat to myself “It will end. It will end. It has to end soon.”  The way that I can live with people for so long, people who supposedly know me, vouch for me and are patient with me is a lie.  It’s all  just a pretty lie.

These are the people that taught me to always do the “right thing”- to always help out any way you can- and when I try to do this, somehow my view of the “right thing” is skewed and a mistake.  This boils down to me being a bad judge of character, a bad judge of my abilities and completely ignorant of my boundaries and those around me.

But this all leads me to wonder: When will I do something, just one thing, that will be “good”?  Something that both people involved and those close to me who hear about it will ease back into their chairs and look to the side and say, “That was a really good thing you did there. A really good thing.”?

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