The Spinning Plate Challenge I Call Life

I need to settle down. I have to keep myself in line and realistic. I’m not sure where this aching need to do everything at once originated but I sure as hell could stand to ache a bit less these days. What is it that makes me utterly patient with others, forgiving and understanding of [...]

Sitting Pretty in Your Dreams

I’m just going to pretend that what I say next will be perfectly expressed in such a cliche: I love my life.  I’m so thankful for it and I’m honestly stuck in “happy disbelief” at how it all turned around so quickly.  A year ago today I was physically very sick and spiritually challenged.  I [...]

Susie Sells Shells Down By the Seashore. Maybe I’ll buy one of hers…

I feel like my protective shell, the one in which I feel most comfortable, is cracking and soon will shatter.  This would reveal the worst thing an introspective soul could imagine: themselves, wholly and transparently.  Keeping up the front, holding the nightmares at bay and protecting my insides from the outside is the purpose of [...]

Misconstrued & Underappreciated, Party of One

I don’t understand. Many times I have felt confused but understood why I was confused. Now, I’m just plain con-fucking-fused and bewildered of my parents. It’s times like these where I wonder if it really mattered if I refrained from getting my nose pierced. I did a lot of research and spent a lot of [...]

The Hours

This past summer, there was another loss in my family. My mother’s grandmother fell ill and in a short amount of hours, passed away. Within the past few years, my great-grandmother had been in and out of the hospital, and I never worried about death as an outcome. For some reason, since she was over [...]

I Miss You (Oh Oh Oh)

Don’t wait until it’s too late to say goodbye/Cuz I don’t wanna leave here with tears in my eyes/I want them dry/So I look brave/So could you just say goodbye and brush them away/This morning I woke up inside your bed/Tonight I’ll wish I was there/Instead of/Where I am now/So far away now/I’d give anything [...]

Letter about Sonshine and learning about myself

Donna, So this weekend was incredible. I am absolutely thankful that I got the opportunity to be a leader in this sense.  Thank you.  The trip started off how I like things – bouncy. Since Mara and Turner didn’t come on the trip, we decided to take two cars. I had Tracy, Mariah and Jahnna [...]